We just dropped my inlaws off at the airport. On the way home I got sick and threw up all over myself and the car. Now I'm resting on the sofa not feeling well. I'd like to sleep, but it's just a few hours til bedtime (and my hair is soaked from needing to shower) … Continue reading Spewing
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Who are you most inspired by? Baudelaire/Emily Dickinson/ Lorca. Baudelaire was the first poet I fell in love with in high school. I bought his Les Fleurs du Mal in high school when I wasn't supposed to be buying books. I hid it in my dresser under my jeans and read it at night by … Continue reading 4
Inlaws Are Here
My inlaws are here. Day 2. I haven't been at my best, or really been the best hostess. I'm antisocial, moody, and tired. I'm stressed out. Why can't I relax? Having C home for the week is nice. I wish it were time with him with just the immediate family. But I'm glad he's getting … Continue reading Inlaws Are Here
Curvy, Sexy, Comfy
Resurrecting an old post from several years ago. Today I got an email concerning an old website I used to run in 2016 that is now offline. In it I talk about body positivity, sexiness, and comfort. I didn't want to lose it, so I have pasted it below. So I tried on some gorgeous … Continue reading Curvy, Sexy, Comfy
Welcome to My Refinished Space
I'm in my soft era. I want to write about my creative endeavors, marriage, motherhood, and Catholic faith. Of course I'll still write about submission, and also the Bipolar Disorder I struggle with. This is an honest diary. But I don't want as much acerbic content here as I have had in the past. I … Continue reading Welcome to My Refinished Space
I Deleted My Trad Instagram
I have come to realize that while many of my male followers are good fathers and husbands, or hope to be one day, some truly despise women. They take the beauty of submission- a gift a woman gives her husband - and twist it into something dark and abusive. I don't want a woman suffering … Continue reading I Deleted My Trad Instagram
Tonight!
Tonight my first Instax Mini 99 is coming! I'm so excited! I also found an expired package of film to use in my Instax Mini 12 that I'm excited to shoot today. You never know how expired film will turn out. It's black and white film. So I don't know if I'll get as many … Continue reading Tonight!
Mood Swings, Cameras
This morning I had OCIA. One more class until Confirmation! I am so excited! Yesterday we got lunch at my favorite restaurant! Salmon with lobster cream sauce and garlic mashed potatoes! My baby girl! She's growing up so fast! It was good to get out. Yesterday I felt so flat I couldn't focus to read. … Continue reading Mood Swings, Cameras
Yay!
C comes home tonight! I am over the moon thrilled. I'm chatting with him while he's on the plane. I have missed him so much. And a new dinosaur documentary comes out on Netflix tomorrow! And I have an organizer coming to help me reorganize my jam packed art studio. This should be an amazing … Continue reading Yay!
A Challenge to Ultra Softness
Today's political circus and cultural collapse make radical softness difficult. I pledged back in 2024 to be radically soft, and overall in 2025 I practiced that goal in my personal life well. But since the Epstein files, something in me broke. Something changed. The evil is everywhere, and we aren't going to vote our way … Continue reading A Challenge to Ultra Softness
Cherished Rainbow 