I woke up to a fresh baked lasagna made by C. It was scrumptious. Then I opened my presents. They got me a new set of rainbow lights for my wall! I had been wanting those for so long since my last set broke. They gave me a little raccoon, a candle, some art suppplies, … Continue reading Happy Mother’s Day!
Tag: Catholic
Welcome to My Refinished Space
I'm in my soft era. I want to write about my creative endeavors, marriage, motherhood, and Catholic faith. Of course I'll still write about submission, and also the Bipolar Disorder I struggle with. This is an honest diary. But I don't want as much acerbic content here as I have had in the past. I … Continue reading Welcome to My Refinished Space
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
I’m Officially Catholic Now!
Glory to God! This morning I made my first confession, did my first penance, was confirmed in the Catholic Church, and took First Communion. I was anointed with oil. C came from work to be with me, as did my sponsor. I got a saint! I am now going to try to cultivate my relationship … Continue reading I’m Officially Catholic Now!
Tonight!
Tonight my first Instax Mini 99 is coming! I'm so excited! I also found an expired package of film to use in my Instax Mini 12 that I'm excited to shoot today. You never know how expired film will turn out. It's black and white film. So I don't know if I'll get as many … Continue reading Tonight!
A Cozy Day
I will not be confirming with my class at the Easter Vigil Mass. Instead, I will do it sometime in the next couple of weeks at a weekday service. Last sunday, I went to my final OCIA class before confirmation, and I panicked when I found out how late and long the service is going … Continue reading A Cozy Day
Mood Swings, Cameras
This morning I had OCIA. One more class until Confirmation! I am so excited! Yesterday we got lunch at my favorite restaurant! Salmon with lobster cream sauce and garlic mashed potatoes! My baby girl! She's growing up so fast! It was good to get out. Yesterday I felt so flat I couldn't focus to read. … Continue reading Mood Swings, Cameras
Abstaining to Avoid Pregnancy
I struggle with the Catholic teaching on being open to life, but I must also count the 2,000 year old Church as wiser than myself. For health reasons, as I've discussed, another pregnancy would be bad for me. But in general I have to admit, birth control has been a demographic and societal disaster. Promiscuity … Continue reading Abstaining to Avoid Pregnancy
A Week of Struggle
There's no getting around it. This week has been an absolute struggle. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm exhausted on a spiritual plane. But I need to count my blessings, so here's a partial list in no order. My husband has been traveling safely and calling and texting as much as he can, though, with the … Continue reading A Week of Struggle
A Challenge to Ultra Softness
Today's political circus and cultural collapse make radical softness difficult. I pledged back in 2024 to be radically soft, and overall in 2025 I practiced that goal in my personal life well. But since the Epstein files, something in me broke. Something changed. The evil is everywhere, and we aren't going to vote our way … Continue reading A Challenge to Ultra Softness
Cherished Rainbow 