Exhausted

My inlaws have been here a week. I hope they’ve had a good time. I love my inlaws, but honestly one week of having guests has been a lot. Stressful. Today I just wanted to hide in the art room to read and collage awhile. I wasn’t feeling social. It was nothing personal. But my mother in law got upset and my husband told me to go back to the living room. So now I’m in here blogging and creating quietly. I can’t focus to read in here. The tv is too distracting. I feel like a bug under a magnifying glass, burning in the light of careful, focused scrutiny. At least they don’t have one of those annoying British mysteries on now. They did earlier.

I love my family but truthfully I’m fried. I think I need my anxiety medicine.

Back. Just took my medicine. I need to just calm down. I feel like a caged animal. I love my inlaws but I just feel shut down. It’s important not to be a bad host but good Lord….I am tired and antisocial. I had hoped they would have fun with C and A, but me leaving the room was obviously an issue. So here I am….on the sofa. Missing the journal I started.

I’ve decided to finish 3 journals for our last year in Guam. They’re beautiful. I’ll post pictures as I progress. I’m eager to document life in text, photos, and stickers.

Here are some recent collages