My inlaws have been here a week. I hope they've had a good time. I love my inlaws, but honestly one week of having guests has been a lot. Stressful. Today I just wanted to hide in the art room to read and collage awhile. I wasn't feeling social. It was nothing personal. But my … Continue reading Exhausted
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Long Nap, Ash
Earlier I made dinner and ran two loads of laundry and painted two paintings. Then I fell into bed and slept for 2 hours. I don't know what came over me. Exhaustion just caught up. Now I'm up and feeling refreshed. Saturday's date night was great. Backrooms was unsettling and I liked it. I tried … Continue reading Long Nap, Ash
Quiet Week
A few pictures This has been a week of rest. I was supposed to make art with my friend J on Friday, but she had to cancel. I talked to my mom on FaceTime instead. Honestly I can't remember much of this week. I was very unwell.
Long Weekend
C has a four day weekend from Saturday to Tuesday, and A has it from Friday to Monday (today). This weekend we ate out by the water. Today we went to my favorite restaurant. Overall this has been a weekend of good food, running errands, and making collages. Soon I'll do a post on what … Continue reading Long Weekend
Collage to Relieve Anxiety
New Planner System
I bought a rainbow themed digital planner I'm excited about. I really want to start using all the digital stickers I have. I was torn between using a planner on my ipad and using my paper planner in the binder, and then I decided on using my phone. It's a big phone with a stylus … Continue reading New Planner System
Taking It Easy
I'm easing back into life today, though my soul is still aching and I'm tired. But life carries on. Luckily I don't have to cook today because we have leftovers of the vegetarian butter chicken my husband made over the weekend. I'm running some bedding in the wash. I may paint. I know I will … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Recovering
I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
Hard Week
I can't write about how hard the past week has been. I'm grateful we got our power back after about two days. To my knowledge, no lives were lost in Typhoon Sinlaku. But mentally it has been an unmedicated, jagged hellscapes of rigid prongs of anxiety digging into my body, and my will to live … Continue reading Hard Week
Cherished Rainbow 