I will start blogging more regularly again soon. My husband was away last week and I struggled. Physically and mentally worn. We are going to a favorite vacation spot for Christmas! I'm looking forward to that. My elbow hurts a lot. I tried tonight to wipe down the refrigerator, and just lifting the bottle of … Continue reading Updates
Category: Bipolar
New Med
Yesterday my mood plunged so low I got an emergency appointment with my doctor. He recommended an unusual treatment. Today was the first day I took it. I slept all morning except getting up briefly for lectio divina with my friend Y. Then I just drifted away. But then, around half past noon, I woke … Continue reading New Med
A Down Day
Today I attended a mom's meetup. It was fun, especially as it called for bringing some of my gorgeous sticker collection. But I left early and didn't feel good the rest of the day. I slept half the afternoon. Now I'm watching The Ritual with my family. I feel like hiding.
Date Day
Today C and I spent the day together. We dropped A off for her first day of 7th grade. Then we ran errands and got lunch at Olive Garden. C took me to the film store, but the only rolls they had left were around 60 dollars. That's more than I wanted to spend, so … Continue reading Date Day
Long Nap, Ash
Earlier I made dinner and ran two loads of laundry and painted two paintings. Then I fell into bed and slept for 2 hours. I don't know what came over me. Exhaustion just caught up. Now I'm up and feeling refreshed. Saturday's date night was great. Backrooms was unsettling and I liked it. I tried … Continue reading Long Nap, Ash
Quiet Week
A few pictures This has been a week of rest. I was supposed to make art with my friend J on Friday, but she had to cancel. I talked to my mom on FaceTime instead. Honestly I can't remember much of this week. I was very unwell.
Long Weekend
C has a four day weekend from Saturday to Tuesday, and A has it from Friday to Monday (today). This weekend we ate out by the water. Today we went to my favorite restaurant. Overall this has been a weekend of good food, running errands, and making collages. Soon I'll do a post on what … Continue reading Long Weekend
Taking It Easy
I'm easing back into life today, though my soul is still aching and I'm tired. But life carries on. Luckily I don't have to cook today because we have leftovers of the vegetarian butter chicken my husband made over the weekend. I'm running some bedding in the wash. I may paint. I know I will … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Recovering
I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
