I'm easing back into life today, though my soul is still aching and I'm tired. But life carries on. Luckily I don't have to cook today because we have leftovers of the vegetarian butter chicken my husband made over the weekend. I'm running some bedding in the wash. I may paint. I know I will … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Category: Bipolar
Recovering
I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
Low
I plummeted yesterday, and today I remained low. I can't shower. I'm not really functioning. I'm very tired.
Fatigue
I taught the Bible journaling seminar to homeschoolers on Friday. The group was small and friendly. I hope they got something out of it. I came home strangely exhausted and had to go to bed shortly after 7. Today I got up early enough, but I still feel exhausted even after napping with my husband. … Continue reading Fatigue
Exhaustion
Today was exhausting because of my medicine again. I struggled to wake up and ended up sleeping most of the afternoon when I laid down for a nap. Now I'm behind on housework and have to catch up tomorrow. Same with laundry. To that end, I am cutting that medicine in half to see if … Continue reading Exhaustion
Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
My microscope arrived and C set it up for me! It is such a sweet gift. It comes with sample slides and a digital camera function. I adore it. My husband has always embraced my weirdness, and I love it. We appreciate one another's quirks. So when I start dying tin foil or asking to … Continue reading Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
Wild Moods
I seem to be sliding into mania. The good news is that I am writing and it feels so good. The bad news is I could not fall asleep last night because of the sensation of bugs on my skin. I stayed home from OCIA, but I am still studying and doing homework and will … Continue reading Wild Moods
My Poetry Comes in Fits and Starts
I have been doing poorly. My bandwidth is low. Tonight, after reading a little for inspiration, I wrote a few poems. I'm not sure I'm happy with them or that they'll get to the point where I am happy with them. But just writing for a few minutes had to be good for me. Physically, … Continue reading My Poetry Comes in Fits and Starts
Trying to Recover Me
Tuesday and Wednesday I volunteered at the dog shelter. A dog I fell in love with the first day was adopted the second day, which made me happy. I came home exhausted, strangely exhausted, but with the satisfaction of making living, loving little animals' day better. Today I am running on little sleep and have … Continue reading Trying to Recover Me
Cherished Rainbow 