Today, I saw a really arrogant post from a therapist telling other therapists that they can charge two hundred and fifty dollars an hour, and she was offering guides on how to make that much or more. People, firefighters, who will run into a burning building for you, don't make $250 an hour. You listen … Continue reading What I Like and Dislike About Therapy
Category: Bipolar
Enjoying New England
We're up in New England. I'm from up here, and it's nice to come back where I came from. The water, the history, the rocky granite landscape that formed me down to my bones - it's nice to be back at the source even if I prefer Colorado or Florida. We got here last Sunday, … Continue reading Enjoying New England
Mania
It's almost 2:30 am and I'm still wide awake. I think I'm going manic. Valentine’s evening was amazing. C and I spent quality, phone free time together. He got me a bunch of wonderful brushes for procreate. I'm super excited to use them! Bipolar is hard. My body is tired and I need sleep, but … Continue reading Mania
Not Well
The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
I had ECT in 2023, and it devastated me. I lost so much memory, and my brain has not recovered. I have to take notes when I try to learn from lectures or books because I will hardly remember anything. Even then, it's hard to remember. I really have to study hard. People get frustrated … Continue reading Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Beautiful Day
Today is a gorgeous day. Warm air and sunny skies are lifting my spirit. I had a medical test this morning, and afterward I stayed up instead of curling up in bed. I've been cleaning the house, studying Arabic, and listening to linguistics lectures. I am hoping this means I am on an upswing and … Continue reading Beautiful Day
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
Hard Week
This week has been a rollercoaster, not to sound cliche. Life with a mood disorder often is. We finally got some sun this weekend, but we are back to another sheet of slate in the sky. It is draining me. Today I had to go to the doctor for an ekg, and then I treated … Continue reading Hard Week
Wonderful Weekend
The girls weekend with L was wonderful! We had a horror movie marathon! We also ate at a couple of good restaurants and went to a carousel. We had hoped to do the pool, but found out that this particular hotel didn't have one. Oh well. We had an amazing time nonetheless! Now I'm back … Continue reading Wonderful Weekend
Cherished Rainbow 