I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Tag: Bipolar
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
In the Midst of the Storm
The power has been out for 14 hours. I'm so hot it's ridiculous. One of our fire alarms is periodically beeping because it's malfunctioning. Wind whips so hard through the storm shutters that they bang and whistle. I'm charging my phone on my laptop the best I can. The house is a dark, humid, hot … Continue reading In the Midst of the Storm
C Just Landed!
C just landed at our local airport, and just in time. A typhoon arrives tomorrow. It might be big. I've got a bathtub full of water in case the water lines get cut. I'm going to try to make sure my phone and my ipad, and everything else are charged before the storm hits. We … Continue reading C Just Landed!
Tonight!
Tonight my first Instax Mini 99 is coming! I'm so excited! I also found an expired package of film to use in my Instax Mini 12 that I'm excited to shoot today. You never know how expired film will turn out. It's black and white film. So I don't know if I'll get as many … Continue reading Tonight!
Mood Swings, Cameras
This morning I had OCIA. One more class until Confirmation! I am so excited! Yesterday we got lunch at my favorite restaurant! Salmon with lobster cream sauce and garlic mashed potatoes! My baby girl! She's growing up so fast! It was good to get out. Yesterday I felt so flat I couldn't focus to read. … Continue reading Mood Swings, Cameras
A Week of Struggle
There's no getting around it. This week has been an absolute struggle. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm exhausted on a spiritual plane. But I need to count my blessings, so here's a partial list in no order. My husband has been traveling safely and calling and texting as much as he can, though, with the … Continue reading A Week of Struggle
Getting Prepared
This week I had appointments or events or something every day. Some of it went well, like lectio divina with Y this morning. Others, like one of my dr appointments, were disappointing. My moods have been horrible and I have been physically exhausted. Today I slept from noon until it was time to take A … Continue reading Getting Prepared
Low
I plummeted yesterday, and today I remained low. I can't shower. I'm not really functioning. I'm very tired.
Fatigue
I taught the Bible journaling seminar to homeschoolers on Friday. The group was small and friendly. I hope they got something out of it. I came home strangely exhausted and had to go to bed shortly after 7. Today I got up early enough, but I still feel exhausted even after napping with my husband. … Continue reading Fatigue
Cherished Rainbow 