I started ECT the Monday before yesterday. I have to get up and out the door by 430 am. It takes them about an hour to give everyone an IV, put the electrode things on them, etc. Then they go one by one and zap us. The machine makes a weird, fast beeping sound when … Continue reading ECT is Killing Me
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Husband, ECT, Friend
My husband is home again for a few weeks. It's so good to have him back! This week, I should find out whether I have been accepted for ECT. It could go either way. My ekg was great, but my blood work wasn't. I don't know how my chest x ray went. Tomorrow is the … Continue reading Husband, ECT, Friend
Agoraphobia?
I'm back at home now after a terrible trip to Panama. I was on the phone with my health coach today, and she suggested that my experience sounded like agoraphobia. My reactions to cities and other busy places aren't normal. I feel worn out and defeated. The life of travel I dreamed of won't happen. … Continue reading Agoraphobia?
Sometimes Things Don’t Work Out
I'm writing this from Casco Viejo in Panama. I am doing badly. Leaving the hotel room is a struggle. Twice I have had panic attacks in public. Mental illness is very real. This week my husband has work to do. Our romantic vacation ends tomorrow and we go to a different hotel in another part … Continue reading Sometimes Things Don’t Work Out
Dieting is So Hard
I like food, especially rich or sweet foods. Because of a botched surgery, I have limited mobility. I can walk, but not far enough to actually take a walk. I am on medication that causes weight gain. In fact, I have been on several meds that caused weight gain. Between these three things, dieting is … Continue reading Dieting is So Hard
Sometimes I Fail
Some days are just hard. Bipolar Disorder takes no vacations. It's full time 365 days a year. Today I have not showered, let alone cleaned the house. I took Angelica to and from school and took care of the dogs. That was about all I could do. I want to be honest about that because … Continue reading Sometimes I Fail
Great Weekend
We had a wonderful weekend. My husband was home Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Friday, we drove across town to a coffee shop my husband loves. Then we got lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. Saturday was the best day of the three. We went to a gorgeous historic plantation in a state park. I got … Continue reading Great Weekend
Losing Weight
I am in a weight loss journey. A mission if you will. I have been very chubby for too long. As a result I have been dieting the past few weeks, and I have seen some success. My husband likes me as I am. He likes my fluffiness and big boobs, so the pressure isn't … Continue reading Losing Weight
Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
Today is my daughter's last day of Christmas break. I can't believe it's over. I feel like I didn't see her much because when we went to Georgia to visit, she stayed with her grandparents while I stayed at the hotel. Tomorrow morning I have to bring her back to school, and I am so … Continue reading Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
Abortion and Miscarriage
Mom groups are some of the dumbest places on the internet. Today's hypocrisy is miscarriage and abortion. I see so many women become enraged at anti abortion legislation, insult Planned Parenthood protestors who believe it's babies being killed, and offer to take other women for abortions. Yet these same women in later posts come on … Continue reading Abortion and Miscarriage
