I'm back at home now after a terrible trip to Panama. I was on the phone with my health coach today, and she suggested that my experience sounded like agoraphobia. My reactions to cities and other busy places aren't normal. I feel worn out and defeated. The life of travel I dreamed of won't happen. … Continue reading Agoraphobia?
Tag: Bipolar
Panama Has Been a Nightmare
I have not done one single activity with the wives. Right now I am supposed to be going to the Presidential Palace to meet the First Lady. I long to go, but my anxiety is too high and my mood too unstable. I have been suicidal most of the trip. Now that the romantic portion … Continue reading Panama Has Been a Nightmare
Sometimes Things Don’t Work Out
I'm writing this from Casco Viejo in Panama. I am doing badly. Leaving the hotel room is a struggle. Twice I have had panic attacks in public. Mental illness is very real. This week my husband has work to do. Our romantic vacation ends tomorrow and we go to a different hotel in another part … Continue reading Sometimes Things Don’t Work Out
Sometimes I Fail
Some days are just hard. Bipolar Disorder takes no vacations. It's full time 365 days a year. Today I have not showered, let alone cleaned the house. I took Angelica to and from school and took care of the dogs. That was about all I could do. I want to be honest about that because … Continue reading Sometimes I Fail
Great Weekend
We had a wonderful weekend. My husband was home Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Friday, we drove across town to a coffee shop my husband loves. Then we got lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. Saturday was the best day of the three. We went to a gorgeous historic plantation in a state park. I got … Continue reading Great Weekend
On My Own
My husband had been gone for a couple of days, and I have been on my own. Normally, my father in law comes to help, but since this is a short trip, I didn't want to ask him to come all the way down here. So, I have been toughing it out on my own. … Continue reading On My Own
Friends, Depression, Minimalism
For the last several days I have been depressed. It has really been a struggle. Today though, I was invited by H and A from church to hang out at H's house. I looked up her address, and the drive looked like something I could do, so I went. I am so glad I did! … Continue reading Friends, Depression, Minimalism
Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
Today is my daughter's last day of Christmas break. I can't believe it's over. I feel like I didn't see her much because when we went to Georgia to visit, she stayed with her grandparents while I stayed at the hotel. Tomorrow morning I have to bring her back to school, and I am so … Continue reading Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
More Digital Art Journal Pages
I've been able to stabilize my mood through creating simple art. I'm enjoying it. The rich color raises my mood. Bipolar never gets easy, and it's important to use every avenue to stay stable. Pharmaceuticals are not enough.
Digital Art Journaling
Using gradients, public domain photos, my photos, textures, light leaks, texts, cut outs, and digital scrapbooking paper, I have spent the afternoon art journaling on my phone. It feels so good! It's very enriching and cathartic. Welcome to my creative space, where I strive to reap the therapeutic benefits of art. Making these art journal … Continue reading Digital Art Journaling
