I'm in my soft era. I want to write about my creative endeavors, marriage, motherhood, and Catholic faith. Of course I'll still write about submission, and also the Bipolar Disorder I struggle with. This is an honest diary. But I don't want as much acerbic content here as I have had in the past. I … Continue reading Welcome to My Refinished Space
Month: May 2026
I Deleted My Trad Instagram
I have come to realize that while many of my male followers are good fathers and husbands, or hope to be one day, some truly despise women. They take the beauty of submission- a gift a woman gives her husband - and twist it into something dark and abusive. I don't want a woman suffering … Continue reading I Deleted My Trad Instagram
Taking It Easy
I'm easing back into life today, though my soul is still aching and I'm tired. But life carries on. Luckily I don't have to cook today because we have leftovers of the vegetarian butter chicken my husband made over the weekend. I'm running some bedding in the wash. I may paint. I know I will … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Recovering
I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
Cherished Rainbow 