We're up in New England. I'm from up here, and it's nice to come back where I came from. The water, the history, the rocky granite landscape that formed me down to my bones - it's nice to be back at the source even if I prefer Colorado or Florida. We got here last Sunday, … Continue reading Enjoying New England
Tag: anxiety
Not Well
The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Doom Scrolling/Food
I've decided my social media habits need a major overhaul. Scrolling distracts me from housework. It also distracts me from reading books, which are much better for my mind than posts and memes. I don't want to get rid of my Facebook or Instagram. They're great for connecting with people, and one of my Instagrams … Continue reading Doom Scrolling/Food
Small Updates
I'm working on a Christmas poem to share with my church this Sunday. I initially bowed out of contributing one because I'm anxious, and honestly, I don't love public speaking like I used to. I've gotten quieter. But the pastor's wife has kindly offered that they could print it in the program or someone else … Continue reading Small Updates
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
New Church
We ended up trying a new church this morning because our church was shut for the Fall retreat we didn't go on. We went to a church far away, because it was the denomination we wanted, which is hard to find. When I tell you this church was wonderful, it lacked nothing. The service was … Continue reading New Church
Wonderful Weekend
The girls weekend with L was wonderful! We had a horror movie marathon! We also ate at a couple of good restaurants and went to a carousel. We had hoped to do the pool, but found out that this particular hotel didn't have one. Oh well. We had an amazing time nonetheless! Now I'm back … Continue reading Wonderful Weekend
Moving is Exhausting
It has been a crazy week. There is so much to unpack and put away. I am physically exhausted from all the carrying stuff around and going up and down the stairs all the time. The bad ankle is not loving me right now. This morning, I hired a professional decorator/organizer to help me. My … Continue reading Moving is Exhausting
New House
Yesterday my husband and I arrived at our new home. Moving was a fiasco. They were supposed to pick our stuff up on Friday. But first, the company didn't do the paperwork they needed to do. So we had to sponsor them on base. But then, when they were trying to get on, they crashed … Continue reading New House
Cherished Rainbow 