I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Tag: anxiety
Hard Week
I can't write about how hard the past week has been. I'm grateful we got our power back after about two days. To my knowledge, no lives were lost in Typhoon Sinlaku. But mentally it has been an unmedicated, jagged hellscapes of rigid prongs of anxiety digging into my body, and my will to live … Continue reading Hard Week
Taco Bell
Today I went to my daughter A's school for lunch to surprise her. I brought Taco Bell. She was so happy! I had anxiety getting there, and anxiety waiting to see her because the cafeteria was so loud. But I stuck it out and I made it. I'm so glad I did. She's in class … Continue reading Taco Bell
Tonight!
Tonight my first Instax Mini 99 is coming! I'm so excited! I also found an expired package of film to use in my Instax Mini 12 that I'm excited to shoot today. You never know how expired film will turn out. It's black and white film. So I don't know if I'll get as many … Continue reading Tonight!
Mood Swings, Cameras
This morning I had OCIA. One more class until Confirmation! I am so excited! Yesterday we got lunch at my favorite restaurant! Salmon with lobster cream sauce and garlic mashed potatoes! My baby girl! She's growing up so fast! It was good to get out. Yesterday I felt so flat I couldn't focus to read. … Continue reading Mood Swings, Cameras
A Week of Struggle
There's no getting around it. This week has been an absolute struggle. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm exhausted on a spiritual plane. But I need to count my blessings, so here's a partial list in no order. My husband has been traveling safely and calling and texting as much as he can, though, with the … Continue reading A Week of Struggle
Getting Prepared
This week I had appointments or events or something every day. Some of it went well, like lectio divina with Y this morning. Others, like one of my dr appointments, were disappointing. My moods have been horrible and I have been physically exhausted. Today I slept from noon until it was time to take A … Continue reading Getting Prepared
Little Steps
I desperately needed to make a little simple art today. The exhaustion has been holding me back, but I want to make sure that at the end of every day I can look back on something creative or positive I did. There isn't as much housework on the weekends, but I can try to do … Continue reading Little Steps
Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
My microscope arrived and C set it up for me! It is such a sweet gift. It comes with sample slides and a digital camera function. I adore it. My husband has always embraced my weirdness, and I love it. We appreciate one another's quirks. So when I start dying tin foil or asking to … Continue reading Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
To Do List for Light Day
I've dropped down into some strange depression again. So tomorrow I want to: 1. Run laundry 2. Finish my magazines 3. Paint 4. Remember all my medicines 5. Film a video. Book review of a bible journaling book. 6. Set up a rudimentary lesson plan for a bible journaling class for the local homeschool group. … Continue reading To Do List for Light Day
