I'm writing this from Casco Viejo in Panama. I am doing badly. Leaving the hotel room is a struggle. Twice I have had panic attacks in public. Mental illness is very real. This week my husband has work to do. Our romantic vacation ends tomorrow and we go to a different hotel in another part … Continue reading Sometimes Things Don’t Work Out
Category: Bipolar
Sometimes I Fail
Some days are just hard. Bipolar Disorder takes no vacations. It's full time 365 days a year. Today I have not showered, let alone cleaned the house. I took Angelica to and from school and took care of the dogs. That was about all I could do. I want to be honest about that because … Continue reading Sometimes I Fail
On My Own
My husband had been gone for a couple of days, and I have been on my own. Normally, my father in law comes to help, but since this is a short trip, I didn't want to ask him to come all the way down here. So, I have been toughing it out on my own. … Continue reading On My Own
Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
Today is my daughter's last day of Christmas break. I can't believe it's over. I feel like I didn't see her much because when we went to Georgia to visit, she stayed with her grandparents while I stayed at the hotel. Tomorrow morning I have to bring her back to school, and I am so … Continue reading Back to School, Mood Swings, Alaska
More Digital Art Journal Pages
I've been able to stabilize my mood through creating simple art. I'm enjoying it. The rich color raises my mood. Bipolar never gets easy, and it's important to use every avenue to stay stable. Pharmaceuticals are not enough.
2 Antidepressants, Gaming, DBT
Taking 2 antidepressants gifted me a glorious November. I keep a daily mood log, and I have never had a monthly chart look as good as November's. I had a few days that weren't great, but the rest were all good days. I can't remember the last time that has happened to me. I think … Continue reading 2 Antidepressants, Gaming, DBT
Riding the Rollercoaster
If I could show you my mood graph, you would see few jagged peaks interspersed with long valleys lately. Functioning has been difficult. However, over the weekend having my husband here has been a balm to my soul. We've gotten important shopping done, watched the new Jurassic World, and worked on the house. He went … Continue reading Riding the Rollercoaster
Cherished Rainbow 