We had a family game night tonight! I got lots of videos of the family. We had so much fun. My favorite game was Apples to Apples.
My husband bought me a porch swing because I thought that maybe if I could swing on a swing and listen to music like I did as a preteen, it could replace the feeling of going on walks, which I can’t do anymore. He hasn’t gotten to put it together yet but I’m looking forward to trying. I hope this works. My therapy app suggested I find an alternative to walks since it is looking like my ankle will not get better. Eventually i want a metal swingset that can support my weight.
I have been gaining weight like crazy. I need to stop or this swing won’t support me. I’d like to work on moderation, but I will not go on an actual diet. I want to be free. However, I do want to start exercising more in the small ways I can. I’ve decided to love my body however it is because my husband does. He likes me as I am…a lot I’d say. Not in a I love you no matter what kind of way, but in a real way. Health is still important though, so I need to try and exercise and moderate with sweets.
I’m still not a fan of the body positivity movement itself. Being healthy and being 400 pounds is pretty much impossible to do simultaneously. I don’t like that activists lie about that. But I do think that fluffier women are gorgeous, so why be upset if I am one?
Tomorrow I have company coming, phone calls to make, and lots of laundry.
